Today I am tired

This is where the tiredness clicks in

24 hours a day and the pending work remains

It's like the Bruno mars song revolving in the head

"Today I feel like not doing anything"

No Bruno I am not lazy, just tired

This is a tiredness that can't be explained

I'm saturated by the apps on my phone

Swipe Swipe Swipe

So what do we do,

Do I follow a proper routine

Doing meditation, reading, writing, working out, showing gratitude 

Cause I know at the end of the day I'm pretending to be busy 

and we all are just being busy just to feel OK,

So what is it?

What's the void that hasn't been filled, What's that empty space which creeps me at night, leaving me helpless and not giving me soulful sleep.

I do pray to God, every evening at 7, that's a routine 

But why does He not help me get a night of profound sleep, 

Why are the scriptures so inspiring and makes me believe its core, but the second I close the Holy book, I back to being not enough, I wasn't a believer before, but now that I am, can I see a revelation? 

Apologies for my questioning, I am a devotee and I need to devote. Right?

So...

Why am I exhausted and restless of the mornings which spurs half the population but leaves me blank.

Am I different?

What's left? What's not done? Where am I going?

I've got friends, 

I got family, 

I got someone who loves me, 

Hell I got kindness too

But the only thing that lacks right now is Peace

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